Front Cover -- Copyright -- Contents -- Prologue -- I. Measures of Time and Metaphor -- II. Two Journeys Begin -- Something is Wrong with Me -- I Did Not Choose -- Suspicion, Witchcraft, and the Magic of Dialogue -- First Encounters -- Childhood of a Different Place -- Adjust, Educate, Collaborate -- The Girl in the Pink Snowsuit -- One Up, One Down -- III. An Unstable Life -- A Hawk in Winter -- The Bitter Pill -- A Weak Spot -- Love and Loss -- The Mirror and The Lens -- Interdependence: The Doctor Moves to NIH -- When the Cat's Away…The Mice Will Play -- The Merchant of the Bronx -- Things Go Wrong:A Patient Named Carole -- A Doctor's Life: Phase 1 Trials -- A Summer Wedding -- A Doctor's Life: Annie, or It's In My Bones -- IV. Facing the Abyss -- Written, Sealed -- The Games Are Over -- Death -- Out Of Sync -- Nature Abhors a Vacuum -- V. Spring Returns -- The Puzzle Pieces of Life -- I Am Me -- Acknowledgments.