Contents -- pansexual -- first date -- mother tongue -- bleed -- sexualicity -- seen -- survivor -- missed -- growth -- what i've lost -- purification ritual -- rock/dragon/light -- just fine -- myths about giving -- the end is the beginning -- faith full -- contentment vs. -- why i believe in starchildren -- scary time -- malled -- strategies -- black dress -- the camera -- erotic nature -- core issue -- my boyfriend is an alien -- how can you blame me for overflowing into these poems? -- you were late for my party -- mr. black and the lovely chakra present -- time -- something i shouldn't plead for -- hypergraphia my love -- you are still keeping us a secret -- she: the haunting -- satisfaction -- knocker -- the year is dying -- the slow vibration of the soul -- snow -- poem about fucking trees -- for your mother -- secret place -- do i want too much? -- fairy tale -- for your son -- what i wanted -- what i look like -- the day turned glorious i love your face -- i want to take you to the japanese restaurant overlooking the city -- opposites -- parts -- organic roses -- i rest my case -- what you need to know -- bad -- consecration -- phoenix -- easter -- every artist needs a muse -- of the lake -- it almost feels like cheating to write a poem about last nightbecause it was a poem already -- i do not want to write another poem about cancer -- east side -- black watch -- by the ice sculptures and swirling -- crone -- desire -- this girl she was in love with a satyr -- porn -- nurture -- trust and lust -- goodmorning -- the best about me -- burned mermaid -- marilyn's shrine and your name -- fear -- sublimation -- in my garden -- open letter to quiet light.