Cover -- LAST DAY ON EARTH: A PORTRAIT OF THE NIU SCHOOL SHOOTER -- AFTER MY FATHER'S SUICIDE -- STEVE GREW UP WATCHING HORROR MOVIES -- MY OWN JUVENILE REPORT IS FROM 1980 -- I HAVE TO GO BACK TO STEVE'S DOG -- I COMMITTED MY CRIMES ALONE -- STEVE SPENDS ALMOST NO TIME AT HOME -- BY THE FALL OF HIS JUNIOR YEAR -- ON APRIL 8, 1997 -- HOW MUCH OF STEVE'S STORY IS ABOUT CLASS? -- THE MARY HILL HOME -- THE MILITARY HAS TRAINED -- ON DECEMBER 1, 2001 -- I MEET JIM THOMAS FOR THE FIRST TIME -- MEETING JIM THOMAS -- ON A SUNNY, COLD FRIDAY MORNING -- IN THE FALL OF 2004 -- I MEET JESSICA FOR THE FIRST TIME -- STEVE'S WINNING OF THE DEANS' AWARD -- TWO MONTHS AFTER -- A COUPLE DAYS -- SAW 4 OPENING NIGHT -- STEVE KEEPS HITTING CRAIGSLIST -- ON JANUARY 7, 2008 -- STEVE SITS ON THE COUCH CRUISING CRAIGSLIST -- IN HIS EMAILS WITH KELLY -- JESSICA SAYS THEY HAD A BLAST AT MANSON -- A COUPLE DAYS AFTER MY FATHER SHOT HIMSELF -- THAT TUESDAY AFTERNOON, FEBRUARY 12 -- VALENTINE'S DAY, FEBRUARY 14, 2008 -- BRIAN KARPES FINALLY NOTICES -- "WHEN THE SHOOTING HAPPENED," -- AT QUARTER TO MIDNIGHT ON FEBRUARY 15 -- NIU PROFESSOR KRISTEN MYERS -- I DON'T THINK I'LL EVER ENTIRELY UNDERSTAND -- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS.