Contents -- Part One: Introduction -- 1 A Crisis of Meaning -- 2 Meaning: The Perennial Quest -- 3 Representations of HIV and AIDS: The Building Blocks of Meaning -- Part Two: Styles of Adaptation -- 4 Transformation: A Journey of Growth -- 5 Rupture: The Shattering of Meaning -- 6 Camouflage: The Fine Line of Self-Deception -- 7 Impassivity: Minimizing the Trauma -- Part Three: Restoring Meaning -- 8 Living with Uncertainty, Ambiguity, and Questions of Mortality -- 9 Coping, Changing, Growing -- 10 Grief and Hope -- Epilogue: The Current Moment -- Appendix A: The Men in the Study -- Appendix B: Research Data -- Notes -- References -- Index -- A -- B -- C -- D -- E -- F -- G -- H -- I -- J -- K -- L -- M -- N -- O -- P -- Q -- R -- S -- T -- V -- W -- Y -- Z.