CONTENTS -- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS -- INTRODUCTION -- I GROWING UP CHUCK -- SOMETHING'S DIFFERENT -- MUSIC-THE GREAT ESCAPE -- AN UNLIKELY DETOUR -- THE ORIGINAL BOY BAND -- II PLAYIN' IN A TRAVELING BAND -- THE WOODEN NICKEL YEARS -- ALMOST FAMOUS -- HEY NOW, YOU'RE A ROCK STAR -- III FREE-FALLING -- BREAKING UP IS HARD TO DO -- AND NOW FOR THE BAD NEWS -- IV I'VE GOT A SECRET -- THE WORST OF TIMES -- HIV AIN'T FOR SISSIES -- A MESSAGE FROM A FRIEND -- WILL THE REAL CHUCK PLEASE STAND UP -- V ILLUSIONS SHATTERED -- READY FOR LOVE -- REWRITING HAPPILY EVER AFTER -- FACES OF VICTORY -- EPILOGUE LESSONS LEARNED.